Colab with Miss Vicc Repasi
Tie, Bind, Bond, Attach, Secure (2018)
'Shibari' - the Art of Binding
I entered this role a bit hesitant but still intrigued since I have been tied up before. In a relaxed outfit during a free dance class, in order to experience "Holding" - what it feels like to be held,
by yourself, by someone else, by your parents or by Universe.
This was a bit tougher. More serious. Professional. And far more exposed. I was being nervous ever since Miss Vicc asked me because I knew it was gonna flip things, but she did a good job keeping me in the game buying expensive beautiful colorful ropes with names like "Peacock".
I got tied up into three various positions during the session which lasted the two hours of the opening - Lotus, standing and sitting tied onto a chair. I went through a wide range of intense emotions such as shame, fear, anger, pride, strength, exhaustion, resignation and relief.
My mind went into this quiet meditative state called 'Subspace' and I got some pretty clear insights - various messages in each position. I also experienced some kind of quiet communication between me and Miss Vicc since she came to my rescue as soon as I thought that I was about to faint.
Before this deeply transformative exorcist journey I used to feel repelled by these kinds of pictures. I thought it was scary and all about pain and misery. It is. On one hand. On the other there's pleasure and peace. Just as within life itself.
When you confront what scares you, facing "the dark side" and bring it into the day- or even spotlight, challenging yourself to step out of your comfort zone, you grow and let go.
You cleanse and you reach another state of bliss.
You find your way back to your path, whether you were or felt lost or not you'll feel more safe and secure. I feel humbled and grateful and I'm actually proud of my bruises. I highly recommend a Shibari experience to anyone feeling resistant.